Long Day, Longer Night
For the past few years, I've been dealing with insomnia. I just simply cannot fall asleep and stay asleep at night. While I could probably nap during the day, say after work, I don't. Whenever I nap, I don't fall asleep until after two or three am, which I just can't handle when I have work every day at 8 am.
I'm not saying this to whine, I'm saying this to remind everyone that some people have problems you just can't see. I hide my exhaustion with a crap ton of under-eye makeup and by staying busy. I love being able to work, write, and maintain a social life, but it can be draining. If I'm busy, I don't have time to be tired.
Sure, I have other medical issues, and sure, none of them really show other than my weight, but I have recently been called out for not wanting to hang out on my day off. I was told I don't make friends my priority.
This is semi-correct. I make my health a priority over friends. If I feel like I am becoming too run down, I will take a mental and physical health day. And this is okay! We're allowed to let our bodies and minds rest. Having people who support this need are also a big priority in my life.
I love my friends. I love my family. I love my s/o, but I have to love myself more. Everyone should love themselves more and be in tune with what our bodies need.
While I'm not one to just say "treat yo self," sometimes you have to give yourself the treat of rest and relaxation.
In short - love yourself, take care of yourself, and find what works for you.
Sarah Emily Lelonek